Depression as a Blessing

Depression as a Blessing

As I coach more and more people suffering from a low-to mid-grade depression, I wanted to use the blog today to discuss depression from a spiritual perspective. I’m no expert on the kind of suicidal depression suffered by famous writers like Virginia Wolf and Sylvia Plath. I want to focus more on people suffering right now due to increasing destruction to the planet and to the financial crisis.

First let me say that I have a different perspective than most people. I think of depression as a deeply creative state, a melancholia that inspires art and poetry as much as “happy” times do. I have learned through my own suffering to “own” depression, to see it as a rich inner state, just as you can see beauty in a devastating winter storm or any violent act of nature. I’ve learned there’s a reason for the depression, and that reason is usually soulfully epic. It took years, but I finally learned to bless the depression. And since blessing the depression, I don’t seem to go down as hard or suffer as much anymore. Knock on wood!

Sometimes, I think depressed people are the only sane people in the world. Their sensitivity means they just CANNOT TAKE how destructive we are as a species to ourselves and the planet. Their souls aren’t shut down. They feel. And what they feel makes their souls sick. They serve as barometers of health in any environment. I find people who suffer from depression to often be the deepest souls I know.

We have life-long depression, and we have environmentally caused depressions like that suffered by many due to the financial crisis. The crisis has shattered many dreams. People can’t find jobs, and lose their homes. It’s not easy, and by discussing the blessing of depression, I don’t want to minimize how scary it is for people right now.

But what is the spiritual gem in all this loss? A man used to being the bread-winner learns what it’s like to need and ask for help. A young woman whose career options shrink to nothing turns back upon herself, realizes what she loves to do and starts her own business. We all turn to each other, to community, for help, instead of staying in our isolated boxes.

Anyone who is thwarted in getting what they want has the opportunity to grow spiritually. When external options aren’t available, we often go internal. How can this be an altogether bad state?

This going inward begins as depression. But the depression is good! Why should my identity be tied to owning a house? It’s four walls and floors; I can’t take it with me when I die. Why should the very essence of who am I be identified with some corporate role? Why should I feel better than you because I can afford a nice car? The hierarchy around the rich feeling superior to the poor is not spiritually healthy. The “normal” way of living life is killing people’s souls. Now that this “normal” has been obstructed, maybe we can all look for the real meaning in ourselves and others. I couldn’t afford a new car after my last one broke down last year, and now I bicycle. I haven’t felt this good,, this spiritually and physically rich, in years!

Depression is such a rich blessing!

I’m a metaphysical coach. Contact me at Shifting Perceptions, www.shiftingperceptions.com

Making Money during the Financial Crisis

Making Money during the Financial Crisis

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(Above) Mystical Hand, www.carolineallen.com

As a writing and metaphysical coach, I have been busier during the financial crisis than at any other time. Why? I ask myself that all the time. I’m as surprised as anyone.

I’ve been pondering it lately, and I think I’m coming close to an answer. I wanted to share my story in case it helped others grappling with how to make money in a sluggish economy. I’m calling it finding your “Path of Value”.

In 1993, I’d been a journalist for many years when I heard a strong call to quit journalism and take up metaphysical healing and fiction writing. At first, I had no idea what the “call” was. I just knew I couldn’t do journalism anymore. I’d worked in newsrooms in Tokyo and London, and as a travel writer in Asia – so you can imagine that giving up journalism was a struggle. I LOVED my jet-setting lifestyle. I still miss it sometimes.

So, I left London and moved to Seattle, where I worked odd freelance journalism jobs while I set myself up as a tarot reader. I’d gone from buzzing around in black cabs in London doing interviews with important people to sitting at a rickety table in the back of a bookstore in Seattle giving psychic readings. Ego-wise it was a falling downward. Spiritually it was right on track, but I didn’t know that at the time. I’d always thought in London that my phone rang off the hook because I was well-loved and important. I realized when it stopped ringing abruptly in Seattle that my “importance” had come from working at newspapers like the Financial Times. I, personally, wasn’t important at all. It was a huge (and necessary) ego blow.

I started writing fiction every day, but as any artist will tell you, you can’t expect to make money from your art right away. In fact, you have to detach your art from money to be able to explore it freely, without having interfering and destructive thoughts about what you’re writing.

I also began teaching fiction classes through evening college extension programs. I’d stand in front of a 6th-grade classroom while adults squeezed into the small desks, posters on bullying on the wall and a snake in an aquarium in the corner. It was good; I found to my surprise I was a good teacher. Some students ended up becoming professional fiction writers after my classes, others created writing groups that are still going today, more than a decade later. But I couldn’t make any money at it. The pay was dismal. And I was so sensitive that the creative outpouring of the 20 or so people in the class would stay with me for days – I’d dream their short stories so profoundly I had little room in my head for my own fiction writing.

Meanwhile, I kept reading tarot. Once, a self-help book writer from NYC stopped at my rickety table. I read for her, and she went back and included me as a resource in the back of her most recent book. Within hours of its publication, I was inundated with clients. Thousands of dollars poured into my account. All great news, yes, but then I had to do the readings. At that time, a one hour reading would take me six hours to recover from. They were draining and overwhelming. I’d get so much information and it’d stay with me for far longer than I could handle.

So, I didn’t see leaving journalism and becoming a fiction writer/metaphysical coach at first as a good thing. It was draining, overwhelming, and I made a starving artist’s income. Who wants that? Why did the universe direct me to give up journalism if this was all I got out of it? Meanwhile, as I grappled with these questions, I was profoundly helped through regular metaphysical sessions with Seattle’s Judith Laxer, www.judithlaxer.com

About six years ago, life started to shift. Over time, I learned how many tarot readings I could do without becoming overwhelmed. I raised my prices. I discovered that I wasn’t as drained if I did the sessions over the phone. The readings were just as good, and I could disconnect psychically more easily afterwards. So I changed my metaphysical coaching business to doing almost all the readings over the phone. This way I could reach clients all over the world – which increased my client base significantly.

Within the realm of fiction teaching, it was a student who helped shape my career as a coach. She asked me simply: “I was wondering if you would work with me one-on-one?” I resisted at first. I wanted to write and publish my own novels, not help every other person in whole blessed world write their books. Months passed. I ran into the student at a party on the beach. A light bulb went on. I could do this one-on-one work. In fact, it would turn out to be a profitable business, but I didn’t know that at the time. I called it Art of Storytelling, a coaching service for writers. I built a website. I came up with a plan. Within months, I had six ongoing clients. I was able to quit teaching.

Now, years later, I make a solid income through writing coaching and metaphysical coaching. I’m busy even during the financial crisis. I’m on my second novel, and I’ve also become a visual artist. Sometimes, I discovered, we can think our ideas are all wrong when in fact they just need time to develop and evolve.

At the same time, the world is evolving. I only recently discovered that part of the reason the universe was calling me to quit journalism was because there would be no print journalism jobs left. Who could’ve predicted that? We also have to pay attention to what’s going on in the world, and evolve with that. I can’t help thinking how much the introduction of PayPal and Skype have made my international business a possibility. I couldn’t have afforded the hour-long sessions to Amsterdam and the UK that I make regularly these days. I can easily get paid online with credit cards. Just a few years ago, none of this was possible.

Yes, I make a humble living, but I don’t feel I have more or less money than when I was an international journalist. All the money I made as a journalist seemed to disappear quickly in trying to maintain the high-pressured lifestyle. Since my spiritual shift my needs and wants are more humble. I’d rather have a simple cup of green tea looking out at the river, than a $4 Starbucks coffee. I’d rather make my own meals and enjoy the colors and aromas of food I’ve hand picked, than go to a stuffy restaurant for over-greased fare. I still travel the world. That is something I’ll never give up.

If you’re unemployed, underemployed, or just unhappy with your work, the advice I’d give is this: Listen to what you really want to do, the work your soul craves. Don’t dismiss it because it quote unquote won’t make you money – even if it’s poetry or visual art or singing. I keep thinking with the financial crisis, with so many people out of work, what do you have to lose? These “troubles” could be the perfect opportunity to try something you’ve always wanted to try. Have the courage. You CAN do it! Ask the universe to help you figure out a way to form your passion into making money in a legitimate, soulful way. I do not use visual art as a money-making path because I don’t want to, so I found another way, through coaching, which feels soulfully legitimate and leaves me the time I need to paint.

There is something profound about valuing your gifts; it brings value to your life, and I know it’s connected to “making money” in the world. It’s like you’re “taking the credit” you deserve in the world. It’s all about self-value first.

You’ll have to work hard. I work harder than anyone I know. You’ll have to figure out as you go what works for you and what doesn’t. You’ll have to stick it out when money is tight. You’ll have to have the courage to say: This is who I am and what I believe and I can do it! If you’d told me 20 years ago I’d be a metaphysical coach, I would’ve scoffed. I’m not scoffing now.

As I mentioned earlier, I was profoundly helped by a metaphysical coach during my process of understanding and shifting my career. One of the reasons I became a spiritual healer is to then turn around and provide that help to others. If you need a session or two, or ongoing coaching, to help you figure out your Path of Value, contact me at www.shiftingperceptions.com.

You are the earth – blogtalk radio interview

You are the earth – blogtalk radio interview

Was just remembering fondly being interviewed one year ago by spiritual healer Lisa Jones, www.artoflivinghappy.com. Listen to the interview here: http://www.blogtalkradio.com/artoflivinghappy/2011/01/25/you-are-the-earth.

I’m a metaphysical coach. For a reading, contact me at www.shiftingperceptions.com.

Tarot Reading for 2012

Tarot Reading for 2012

Happy 2012!

As we enter a new year, I decided to throw a tarot reading and ask what we should expect in 2012. I’ve listed the cards I pulled below the reading.

Question: What do we need to know about 2012 for the greatest and highest good?

When anyone or any sentient being (including animals) suffer, we all suffer. It is our spiritual path to lift our brothers and sisters up and evolve as a planet. Stop worrying and moaning about how horrible it is to see people suffer through wars, to watch children starve, to witness cruelty to animals. Stop bitching and start taking action. Pick an area that interests you, that touches your heart, and find one way to help out. Donate time or money to the organizations that work for the greatest and highest good, for children and women who are hurting, war victims, the hungry, abused animals, the abused environment — there are so many benevolent organizations now working for the greater good. Join them. Or meditate on world peace. Devote your own life to nonviolence on every level. Emanate the spiritual energy you’d like to see in the world. In summary, stop whining and get to work! We are all responsible for bringing peace to the planet.

When someone suffers abuse, they are left with little or no self esteem. With low self esteem, the abused go out and affect us all. Their actions can be inadvertantly thoughtless or seem uncaring. We deal with such people every day, at work, in our social lives, and sometimes they drive us crazy. Instead of going toward annoyance and anger, trying seeing the other as a child who has suffered. Reach out to the other person with compassion instead of frustration. Yes, their actions are quote unquote wrong. But don’t just see the action. Penetrate deeper with compassion. This is what every single one of us can do right now to bring world peace without even having to volunteer time or money. Take the most difficult, annoying person in your life right now. Stop waiting for them to change. Change your own reaction. Clear your own vision. Close your eyes and imagine this person as a child who has been terribly hurt. Reach out in your visualization with love to that child. Now, during the day when you’re dealing with this person, see that child. Pour love onto them. See if you might not create a peace revolution right in your own backyard.

There are people in the world who are trying to raise the vibration of the planet. Seek them out. These are spiritual teachers who give of themselves and their wisdom. Find them. Listen to them. Join them. Read their books. Some of the best known are people like the Dalai Lama. Commit to finding them. If you’re an animal lover, find the movers and shakers who are fighting for the fair treatment of animals. If you’re a woman artist, seek out women artists who are trying to shift the paradigm. Quit crying over spilled milk, and seek out those whose glasses are half-full. They’re out there. Ask the universe to introduce you to them. Learn from them.

Many of those in the world suffer a low- to high-grade depression. Depression is rampant. We’d like to say a few words to those who are depressed. You have a right to be. It IS depressing. Too many people still think money is king, power is king, that people and animals are “resources” and not soulful beings who deserve the utmost respect. We hurt each other brutally. We hurt the environment. We hurt ourselves. We seek spirit and it seems like spirit is all dried up. Yes it’s depressing. We want to honor you for being a deep feeling person, a person filled with love who is so sensitive he simply cannot take the abuse all around him. However, you must not let the depression immobilize you. The way to do this is to take action for the greater good. Any action to help others or animals or the planet will help you to feel better. We NEED you. We NEED your sensitive soul to help save the planet. Please don’t succumb to the darkness. We love you and we’re here for you. Take just one action today to work toward helping others. You’ll see a difference in your energy and mood almost immediately.

(Below please find a list of the cards pulled for this reading. When I read tarot, all of the cards stand up as if they’re on stage and putting on a play. I read the “play”, and therefore you won’t necessarily find each card corresponding to a specific sentence above.)

Hanged Man
Eight of coins reversed
Page of coins reversed
Six of cups reversed
Page of swords
Four of coins
Seven of swords
Six of coins
Sun Reversed
Eight of swords reversed
Emperor

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Blue Goddess

Blue Goddess

I stand in a low mountain pass, on all sides ragged peaks, cobalt ice and snow. Snow swirls wildly, the environment massive and humbling.

In front of me stands a blue woman, blue in clothes and even blue in face, like some kind of Hindu Goddess. She is aloof, powerful, sexy, beyond my small manipulative powers.

“What do I need to know about being an artist?” I ask her.

She doesn’t speak, just motions for me to come closer. I do, and I find she is leading me slowly into her. I actually step into the being of the blue Goddess. I am inside her, and the power I feel is intense. There is no way to control this energy, only to accept it. Like the jagged peaks, it’s a natural power that is so much bigger than an individual person. It’s a power that’s beyond the US, that’s not even just global, but universal. I feel like I do when I am in an awe-inspiring environment. There is nothing I can do but experience the energy, to honor it.

A calm comes over me. This feels right. There’s a part of me inside this blue Goddess that has been missing, that I haven’t had the nerve to own.

I step back out of the blue Goddess. I would do anything to stay; I feel protected, loved and so fully in my power inside her. But, I must get back. I thank her. She stares at me with profound love. I feel wild like the cracking ice, as deep and dangerous as a nearby crevass. Her power and energy stays with me as I head back down the perilous mountain.

I’m describing here a shamanic journey I did to own my power as an artist. The blue Goddess represented the archetype of the Artist. Archetypal energies contain individual power, collective power, as well as universal power. I was attempting to own more of this power.

Right after the journey, I got my first art studio. I was on a waiting list for a studio at a old factory full of artists in Lowell, Massachusetts. I received a call the next day. I was way down on the waiting list; I couldn’t at first understand why they were calling me. The waiting list was over a year long. They told me they’d gone through the list, and I was the first one to respond. I went to see the space, old hardwood floors, high ceilings, exposed pipes, massive windows. I moved in within a week. From there, I started to grow and expand as an artist, sell my artwork, and even get some recognition.

I have tried this process with clients with great success. After taking a shamanic journey where they enter their archetype or spirit guide, situations in their life start to shift and grow. Some have even experienced sudden success. This process is not just for artists, but for empowerment of any kind. Contact me if you’d like to try such a shamanic journey. It’s a way to engage empowering energies that seems to bypass the endless talking about our desires to succeed. I’ll warn you, big things could happen quickly. So be ready!

www.shiftingperceptions.com, caroline@shiftingperceptions.com

The Power of the Doodle

The Power of the Doodle

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My doo-doo-doodles, www.carolineallen.com

A few days ago, I had a powerful day of remembering what is at the core of my spiritual path, what is fundamental to my artistic path. My spiritual and artistic path are deeply entwined. It all started with an Einstein quote on Facebook:

The intuitive mind is a sacred gift and the rational mind is its faithful servant. We have created a society that honors the servant and has forgotten the gift.

From there, I found, still on Facebook, a wonderful NPR story about a children’s book illustrator Eric Carle. The story was all about a blue horse he created. To quote NPR:

Carle hopes blue horses show his young readers that in art, there is no wrong color. “One must not stay within the lines,” he says. The point is to just enjoy color — but also to be surprised. Seeing a green lion or a polka-dotted donkey is still a bit of a shock, he says.

Then I remembered how a close friend, who’s an artist, loved fractals, and emailed her with a fractal message. She was inspired that same day to create fractal portraits. Later she said, the fractal poets (I wrote poets and meant to write portraits, but then had an image of these fractal poet spirits flying around my friend’s head like angels) inspired a voice she’d nearly forgotten about.

How do these all fit together. To follow spirit, to find our genius, to open up to our art, we have to loosen the grip the rational linnear mind has on us. I was also led to a deeper realization about my own artistic process and my spiritual path. I must go backwards to go forwards. We all must go backwards to go forwards. Let me explain.

I do lots of tarot readings for people all over the world. I coach people metaphysically and I’m a writing coach for writers working on novels and memoir. What I see again and again, all over the world, in men and women, in all age ranges and socioeconomic groups, is that when people feel stuck, they often need to go back to their original childish voice to find themselves again. What can result with this re-engagement of our early selves is an opening of the gates, to more power in our work, more love, more contentment in our lives, and an increased productivity. Mostly, though, it’s all about loving our life.

It may feel like going backwards, but it’s really not. When you were a child, you had all the wild creative spiritual wisdom of your authentic self. That side of you was “normalized” by family and the school system and social mores to the point where it went underground. To become like a child again may feel like going backwards, but it’s actually just going home.

In my own experience, honoring, owning and nurturing this child self, letting her speak, has opened doors to energy and fulfilment that has sustained me for years. If you’re feeling stuck, sit down with colored pencils and a piece of paper and doodle. It may be the goofiest and most important thing you could do for yourself.

Want to hone your intuition? I offer 10 tarot lessons for $25. Go here for more info: http://www.shiftingperceptions.com/#!vstc0=tarot-lessons

I’m a metaphysical coach and tarot reader: www.shiftingperceptions.com. I’m also a writing coach, www.artofstorytellingonline.com.

When Success is Succexy

When Success is Succexy

From Costa Rica to Canada, from Australia to Armenia, from Washington DC to Washington state, people all over the world are feeling a call to change their lives, to align to spirit, to find their true calling and align with it. With the global financial crisis and enviornmental chaos, many are feeling there’s no time to waste. We must shift our perceptions and shift our lives to nurture ourselves and the planet. My name is Carrie Allen, and I’m a metaphysical coach. As more people seek out metaphysical answers, as I read for and coach people all over the world, I am seeing certain universal truths. This blog is my way to explore spiritual issues that come up in a world gone woefully awry.

Many, many people call me because they’re not happy with their work. These are “successful” people with big, high-paying jobs. They feel soulfully lost. They keep trying to push down this discontent, but the longer they ignore it, the worse it gets.

They come to me in despair. The tarot tells them what they already know — they must find work that suits their soul. But how? There are bills to pay, mortgages, children. Life can be expensive.

The soul is speaking to you and telling you how. Be quiet and gentle and listen. Don’t quit your day job just yet. Listen to the soul messages and take one action a day. Even if your hopeless, terrified, despairing, take that one action. By tapping into soulful energy creates a snowball effect. A little energy over time transforms into energy that can shift mountains.

Here are some first-step messages some recent clients have received: Join a meditation group; join a writers’ group, take the camera out of storage, take a walk and take some photos; set up a table in the corner of a room and put your jewelry-making supplies upon it.

You know what these messages are. You just can’t see how they’ll translate into getting a new job. Go step-by-step. Build up a head of spiritual steam. All things can become possible them. All you have to do is that that first step.

Then the second.

Then the third.

Finally, in a year or three, you’ll discover the work you were meant to do, and you may even make a living at it. But even if you don’t, even if you have to stay in your job, your level of contentment and feelings of success will be high enough to make it all work. Success can become succexy…but it probably won’t be the success you expected. You put one of your photos up at a coffee shop. You start writing fiction again. You sell a necklace. Your heart, spirit, soul soars. You’re finally succexy.

It takes a great deal of courage to listen to spirit. It takes even more courage when there’s a financial crisis and the environment is responding to our abuse with wildly erratic behavior. It takes guts to follow spirit, but we must. We have no time to waste.

Contact me for metaphysical coaching or a tarot reading.

Carrie Allen
www.shifting perceptions.com
caroline@shiftingperceptions.com

Self-protection in a toxic world

Self-protection in a toxic world

From Costa Rica to Canada, from Australia to Armenia, from Washington DC to Washington state, people all over the world are feeling a call to change their lives, to align to spirit, to find their true calling and align with it. With the global financial crisis and enviornmental chaos, many are feeling there’s no time to waste. We must shift our perceptions and shift our lives to nurture ourselves and the planet. My name is Carrie Allen, and I’m a metaphysical coach. As more people seek out metaphysical answers, as I read for and coach people all over the world, I am seeing certain universal truths. This blog is my way to explore spiritual issues that come up in a world gone woefully awry.

As a metaphysical coach and tarot reader, I’ve been getting a lot of clients lately who keep picking up world madness. They feel more upset than normal, unable to remain centered, and confused as to where all this despair is coming from.

They’ve always been sensitive, always picked up the environment, always absorbed the world like a sponge, but an increasingly unstable world has meant that picking up the vibes of the enviornment has become dangerous to their sanity.

I love this about my metaphysical work. I start to see greater trends and issues that affect many people. And then I start to notice that I, myself, am losing it a little more than normal. That I’m going insane a bit because I’m absorbing an insane world. There’s so much fear. The financial crisis has pulled the rug out from under a lot of people. Environmental instability is scaring all of us. Even if we have a spiritual practice, even if we work that practice daily, we can still pick up the mass terror, the mass fear, the madness that seems to be infecting others who may not do spiritual work, who may just act out of their fear. And my worry is that it’s all going to get worse.

What to do? The message I’ve channeled for each client has been this: We must go inside, do even deeper spiritual work, find our strong boundaries and engage them. I use shamanic practices for this, journeying to find the spirit guide who will be the protector, who will help us stay centered, allow the positive, but block the toxins.

I believe those of us who are spiritually open are here to make a difference. We need to up the ante on our spiritual practices. We need to be strong, because we’re going to be needed even more as the rest of the world trembles.

I’m a metaphysical coach. Contact me if you need a reading, or want to do spiritual work on boundaries. Email: caroline@shiftingperceptions.com. Web: www.shiftingperceptions.com